Knowing.

I used to feel as if the world was spinning, but I was stuck with you in the middle.
Actually; sometimes I felt like I was stuck there alone.
I used to cry because I wanted to understand why things happen.
I wanted to understand myself.
I wanted to understand YOU.
But now I know that no matter how hard I try, I don't think I ever can.
Some people will never change.
Some people will never try to understand.
But you know what?
I don't care.
You're not who I thought you were.
We're not the friends I hoped to be.
But that doesn't even matter anymore, because I know I'll find someone else that will try to understand me, take me for who I am, not try to change me, and be my friend.
I'm sorry.
But it's not you. ;]

Why?

Why does life has to be like that?
Why do people you think are your friends use you to get the things that they want?
You feel like you do everything for them, and they give you nothing back in return.
They do all this, yet they STILL have a reason to disagree with what you are trying to tell them.

and the old friends reunite. well, not that old.

Today has been a fun day!
I visited a friend I haven't seen in three months!
We went to the park and it started raining, so we had to run home in the rain!
Haha!
We also took some peekchures for Facebook ;]
I lovezz you Mia!<3

Their Place In This World.

We all have a time in our lives, when we feel like our heart has been taken by a spirit.
Bitterness and misery fill our lungs intensly, and we are overflowed with longlasting pain.
Everything we've ever had, and everything we'll ever had, with anyone we've ever met, now or tomorrow, is no longer bright inside our minds. It's filled with anger and frustration.
We are living every moment as our first.
And as those tears fall down our strained and droopy faces, the ones we love more than anything in the world, don't seem to care about what we are going through, and what we feel inside.
They live their lives as if everything will be okay, and everything is perfectly fine, when we know ourselves it isn't.
We don't stop to think about what they think of us, because we feel we already know.
We judge, and critize the ones we said we loved, we said we cared for, the ones we thought we knew.
But maybe if we stopped our negative thoughts, and maybe if we stopped to take a breath, we would realize their spot in this world.
What if all we needed what to give them a chance to speak, and when we thought we were miserable, they were drifting away, feeling the same.
Maybe all they need is a little time to think things over, because the way we react to situations, makes them unable to know how to speak to us.
But once we realize why things are the way they seem, the way those same people we thought we loved, didn't seem to share our sorrow, and stand by our side, maybe once we realize we do not walk alone, and true love never dies...
We will realize not only our place in this world, but the ones who stood by our side our whole journey, our whole life.
Even if it didn't appear that way at first, or even for the longest time, they've never left us, even if they felt we've left them.
Their place in this world,
And who they are and who they'll always be,
The ones we keep coming back to no matter how much we try to run away...
Is a friend.